Special ops given a strange order to execute

I was with a special ops team when the U.S. government betrayed us.

We were tasked with training the soldiers of a foreign government. As a result, they knew— because we trained them— a lot of our tactics. They also had some intel. It was intel we gave them— intel they needed to do their job.

We grew close to these men while we were deployed there. Then, after several months, we were ordered to leave. It was abrupt.

We were also ordered to execute all of those soldiers before we departed.

They had trusted us not to leave them. Not only did we leave them, we— under orders— killed them on our way out.

In the government’s mind, they were “foreign assets” we no longer needed. Like a valuable possession you no longer want, we were commanded to discard these people.

Brutally.

After we gave them our word we would always be around.

How do you file that?

How do you not carry that with you and not wander what else might happen?